He just paged me rite now. 5057. I've been waiting for over 2 hours. He said that he was busy and told me that he would call later tonight. I guess he really meant later tonight. I was impatient. I went outside and walked over to his place. . . just to confirm my suspicions that his EX was over. She drives a red civic i believe. I couldn't see anything. It was practically useless going over there to check because the lights were dim. All I saw was a couple kissing and embracing on the opposite end of the street. I should have worn my other contact lense. What gave me the urge to do this? I ask myself. This is silly because I know there cannot be anything between us. Partially because I cannot appreciate him as much as HER. Moreover, my mother encourages me not to do so. What my peers said about him bother me a bit. I've thought about him differently in a way these days. But, it hasn't stopped my pursuit? for him. I do not understand this. It perplexes me. I love my baby. But, what is this desire? Why is this other desire here? It's torture. --

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